astera.poetry

Why do I think I don’t deserve love? Because what have I actually done to deserve it? I am not particularly kind, I am stubborn and selfish… Read more “adventures in therapy – part 6”

I joke a lot about being bad luck, about being cursed, but truth be told I call these unfortunate events upon myself through my own stupidity. I… Read more “making my own luck”

I amtoo tiredto findany wordsto describehow tiredI am

“I don’t know how you can expect anyone else to love you when you so clearly hate yourself.” I am stuck in bed, in pain beyond description… Read more “thanks bojack horseman”

Liquid firesearing through my veins.The worst pain have ever knownand I have been throughthree miscarriages.I cannot stop crying.What I would giveto never feel this againand yet I… Read more “the day of”

Like a child on Christmas eve, tonight I cannot sit still, It is not through excitement of Santa visiting with presents but through fear of what is… Read more “d-1”

My teachers always told me that I had a flair for learning languages and it’s something that I’ve always tried to develop myself as a hobby. But… Read more “new languages”

I understand if you’re bored of me. I’d be bored of me too, if I was you. If I was no more than a stray you took… Read more “am I being needy again?”

“Hey, where do you want to go for team lunch?” My heart stops. I don’t know how to tell my colleagues that I need 48 hours written… Read more “dietary requirements”

I look at places to rent near my work, I look at savings accounts to go towards a mortgage, I look at the cost of law degrees,… Read more “freedom”