An old friend and I
used to subscribe to the adage
that you should try and do one thing
every day that scares you.
But when everything scares you,
what counts?
what is enough?
Is walking down the street enough?
Is going on a date with someone you met on the internet enough?
Is flying to a different country on your own enough?
Is cancer enough?
I have since learned that fear is fluid and relative
and each day the limits of what scares you might be different.
One day, I might be able to face down a wild lion without flinching.
The next, I might not be able to leave my room to get a drink
even though the house is empty.
Every day is different and needs to be handled differently
and that is perfectly okay
as long as you keep trying.

– for Ben, thank you for being my earliest supporter