An overwhelming sense of fear
that I have not felt
for the longest time
has sank its teeth into me.
I take vigil at the window
silently watching
every bird fly by
every leaf move on its branch
in what I assume is
the gentle breeze.
I jump at every slight sound
and my eyes flicker to every motion.
I was on the brink
of starting something new
and going to explore
and embrace the world,
but right now it feels like
one step forward
and eighteen months
of steps back.

– no dedications this time